I really don’t know.. sometimes I don’t care.. I don’t really pay attention or give a damn!
and sometimes I surprise myself, where all that .. errr .. all that depression was hiding.. I go deep and down.. like no one ever been depressed before.. full of sadness and ugly negative thoughts.. tears and grief.. it used to take weeks, then lately few days..
I know that after all the above; I become OK, pull myself up and out of all this, with help of family, friends.. and Allah. I become all about peaceful positive and cheerful thoughts.. more important, stronger and wiser. and feel Great, fresh and new! My rebirth..
and then I go back to eh, I don’t know.. Doesn’t matter and Whatever! and these few words become my answer to EVERYTHING. nothing makes any difference and nothing can draw a true smile..
I get inspired in most cases.. and write, some things go online and others stay somewhere else, depends on the mood.. but in all this.. nothing is new.. in a way or another, it has all been said and done..
What did you expect? I already said Boring 🙂